Happy Memorial Day

Happy Memorial Day, my friends. Let us remember those who cared enough to give their all, those who did and who witnessed and who endured unspeakable things so that we can all live in a better world.

I'm pretty down, today... I have been kind of disconnected for some reason. No, I take that back, I won't lie; I know the reason I'm down, I just don't want to say too much about it here right now. I'll save the emotional mouthiness for another night. For today, though, I have been a little surprised by some things today, like how I felt about not being able to visit Dad's grave and pay my respects. At the same time, though, at least my dear friend Amanda cared enough to mention him in her own remembrances for the day. I myself only heard from one person today passing their regards for Memorial Day, though I wasn't expecting too much to begin with.

I feel tired... tired. Tired of some of the things I have to deal with that most people never hear about. I find it pushing me in directions I don't want to let myself go. But I guess we'll have to see what happens.

A random thought, though a bit more uplifting than mood for today: yesterday I woke up from a dream that was so pleasant I struggled to get back to sleep for hours to recapture it. I know it's hard to do such a thing, but this is the first time in years I've actually had a dream that nice.

I'm going to go visit family next week, and get some work done for the Federal Government that they've been talking to me about for a few years. I figure I may as well get it out of the way. Plus it will give me some time to think about later this year.

For the moment, the best offer is coming from the College of Charleston, though the others, and some newcomers, are making good cases. I think I could enjoy being back in Charleston for a while, perhaps even permanently. There are some issues I'd have to tend to there before moving back, though. I'll be weighing it all out next week, and maybe even in the weeks that follow.

In any case, loyal readers and creepers, I think I'm going to relax and enjoy what's left of Memorial Day. Keep me, and those I love, in your thoughts and prayers.